For the second time my deceased grandmother has contacted psychic medium, Laura Emerald, to get a message to me. This one was delivered as a poem. This connection was first made almost exactly a year ago, when I found myself in a similar time of prolonged suicidal thoughts. While last year I knew I wasn’t going to act on my self-destructive thoughts (it really felt like things releasing, for good I thought), this year, I wasn’t so sure. Last month I was as close to making an attempt as I’ve been in years.
Here is the poem my Gram gifted me.
The Golden Ball of Light
Andy Dear ~ here’s a Teddy Bear
For you to hold when feeling fear.
When you are sad, feeling alone and the world not right,
Think of me, your Gram, filling you with golden light.
Imagine a ball, big, and huge with love
That fills your head with sunshine from above.
Now Andy I am watching you
and know you’re testing spirits too…
I think you need a new measuring stick
to determine your self worth extremely quick!
For Andy ~ You are the I AM ~ Truly You ARE
And you’re seeking something external~thinking it’s far!
When in fact Andy, what you seek is on the inside
Your cells and soul~ You are God and from that you can’t hide.
So I ask you now to hold a mirror up
And know that what you see is a God hologram ~ Yup!
You feel this to be true but it turns your world upside down…
Realizing the Divine is YOU ~ means honoring your Body, Mind, and Soul this time ’round.
Andy Dear, I so want you to be happy
but I can’t give you that or I would ~ yes, it’s sappy.
But I can tell you to make this your Wayne Dyer Year!
Listen to all of his writings, internalize it, and let go of your fear!
The world needs your light and your work’s not done
So please my dear, set aside thoughts of going dark and on the run.
Band together with your Spirit Guides, and ask the Angels for help too
and know that I’m seeing your heart true.
Please let me leave you with this thought,
You are like a Domino and your actions aren’t for naught.
Your actions have ripples and make people think
YOU are a positive impact so step back from the brink.
Your end is not to be a domino slide down a hole
Leaving your loved ones wondering and blaming their role.
Go out in Glory with your body old and weary
And loved ones honoring you all weepy and teary.
Let your Accomplishments pile high
Your life an inspiration…
Note: The poem is intentionally unfinished because my Gram says my life, my work, and my time on Earth is not finished.
Laura has recently released a short book of channeled poetry. She tells me she’s not a poet at all, but that is how Spirit communicates on occasion. Check out We Are Here: Whispers of Love from Laura Emerald.